FUCK THIS

it's only like 10am and my day is already so fucking shit. fuck this i wanna die.

28.

HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO LIVE WHEN A RELATIVELY GOOD DAY BECOMES PROGRESSIVELY LESS GOOD AND MORE AND MORE SHIT... SO SHIT THAT I EVEN FELT THE NEED TO WRITE A BLOG POST ABOUT IT. .. IN THE FUTURE, WHEN I FEEL LIKE MY DAY IS NOT GOING TOO WELL, I WILL JUST READ THIS AND REMEMBER THAT TODAY, THE 21ST OF SEPT 2012, WAS THE SHITTEST DAY EVER AND THAT NOTHING COULD EVER COMPARE TO THIS. GOD, STOP PLAYING WITH MY EMOTIONS. I CANNOT DEAL.

27. These days seem long... Where have you gone?

UNI is so bloody exhausting. Blah. I am tired every day of my life! WHY!?

Here's a pretty song! -

26. Hold tight, this will all go your way.

Immensely annoyed with myself right now. It is even to the extent where I can feel my own heart palpitations that have arisen out of sheer frustration and disappointment and all things tragic. I need some guidance... Every day, it's the same old self-inquiry - what the fuck is wrong with me!!?!?! Honestly, I just want to do well and be happy but apparently that is too much of an ask.

Can I just say that the day mid-semester break festivities are afoot, I will be cheering the loudest out of everyone. But in the meantime, I will continue to sit here at my desk being bored/sad/lonely lalalala.... : )

X