2012 Retrospective

2012. What a year. I want to ramble but I have only very little to say.
UGH.

P.s. Hi Adrian. You're my only reader. I'd just like to inform you of my everlasting and unconditional love for you.

32. Time, just keeps on slipping away

I'd say the biggest lesson I've learnt from my first year of uni is one I should have learnt during high school: DO NOT LET YOUR SHIT ACCUMULATE TO THE POINT WHERE IT IS A GIANT, NASTY-ASS F_CKING MOUNTAIN. Far too much time was spent "kb-ing" as opposed what I should have actually been doing, i.e. putting pen to paper. In hindsight, I only have myself to blame for all of this. I will be the first to raise my hand in admitting that all my failures are indeed just that, MY FAILURES. Something I should probably work on is prioritising. I really need to stop losing sight of my lifelong goals. Ha! LEK WHY!!!!!?!?!



Also, in less than 6 weeks the year will finally end. Here are my NYRs that I had written previously. Let's see how I'm going...

NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS ~

• Learn how to drive
• Read lots of books
• Keep organised
• Maintain good friendships
• Get a job
• $$ave
• Quit swearing
• Keep an open mind

 Wow, 1 out of 8. That steady progress... Oh well, there is time.

I will end this post on a happy note.
ENJOY

31. You turn my legs into spaghetti.

Procrastinatin' like I do.

Twenty-six weeks of uni have come to an end. I will write a lengthy post laterrrrrrrrrr~~.
In the meantime, listen to this song. It is the ultimate pedo anthem.

30. You are surrounding all my surroundings, twisting that kaleidoscope behind both of my eyes.

 Such a weird song. Dat hybrid of genres.

FUCK THIS

it's only like 10am and my day is already so fucking shit. fuck this i wanna die.

28.

HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO LIVE WHEN A RELATIVELY GOOD DAY BECOMES PROGRESSIVELY LESS GOOD AND MORE AND MORE SHIT... SO SHIT THAT I EVEN FELT THE NEED TO WRITE A BLOG POST ABOUT IT. .. IN THE FUTURE, WHEN I FEEL LIKE MY DAY IS NOT GOING TOO WELL, I WILL JUST READ THIS AND REMEMBER THAT TODAY, THE 21ST OF SEPT 2012, WAS THE SHITTEST DAY EVER AND THAT NOTHING COULD EVER COMPARE TO THIS. GOD, STOP PLAYING WITH MY EMOTIONS. I CANNOT DEAL.

27. These days seem long... Where have you gone?

UNI is so bloody exhausting. Blah. I am tired every day of my life! WHY!?

Here's a pretty song! -

26. Hold tight, this will all go your way.

Immensely annoyed with myself right now. It is even to the extent where I can feel my own heart palpitations that have arisen out of sheer frustration and disappointment and all things tragic. I need some guidance... Every day, it's the same old self-inquiry - what the fuck is wrong with me!!?!?! Honestly, I just want to do well and be happy but apparently that is too much of an ask.

Can I just say that the day mid-semester break festivities are afoot, I will be cheering the loudest out of everyone. But in the meantime, I will continue to sit here at my desk being bored/sad/lonely lalalala.... : )

X

25. Talk, don't talk too much, you're always talking.

My faves!










X

24. Why don't we all fall in l-ooo-o-o-ooo-oo-ooo-ooo-ve?!

 As many of you may or may not know, my hair both looks and feels like ass (very coarse and dry - think broomstick) right now. Any normal person would probably suggest that I go get myself a haircut... BUT THAT IS TOO MUCH OF AN ASK GUYS!!! 80% OF THE TIME I WALK OUT LOOKING LIKE A BIGGER ASS THAN I DID WALKING INTO THE SALON. Shitty haircut experiences have tainted my entire childhood and I have been left deeply scarred and almost traumatised (LOL). What to do?!!!!!! This is such a DILEMMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, albeit a very vain and unnecessary one.

Ideal length & cut if I do in fact cut my hair.

ADIEU X

23. Oh oh hey, I'm dancing!

SO FUCKING SICK OF EVERYONE'S SHIT.



FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUU
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
FUUUUUUUCCCKKIIIIIIINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
HAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
YOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRR
GGGGGGGGGUUUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTSSS!!!
DIE
DIE
DIE
DIE
DIE
DIE
A
SLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWW
AND
PAIIIIIIIIINFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUULLLLLLLLLLLLY
GRUUUUUUUEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSOMMMMEEEEEE
DEATH.
YOU VINDICTIVEEEEE SON OF A BIIIIIIIIIIIIITCH.
I HATEEEEEEEEEEE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I AM FULL OF SPITEEEEEEEEE RIGHT NOWWWWWWWWW
BECAUSE OF YOUR PETTTTTTTTTY WAYSSSSSSSS.
GO AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
VANISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DISAPPEAR!
PLEASE.

22. Sometimes the silence guides your mind.

21. Life's too short to even care at all. OH!

My workmates are so nice. Wow, having put it so short and succinctly as so, I find I no longer have anything to say.

Owwww my head!
That is it!
Darling.
Stupid assss.

Ah, there are just too many funny things they say. Anywho, I'm taking a week off due to some thaaaaangs going on in my life but I am indeed keen to get back to see everyone. :')



YALLAH BYE X

20. This isn't a joke, man. I'm thin as smoke, man.

DEAR FRIENDS, I HAVE COME TO PROVIDE YOU WITH SOME GOOD NEWS. I DID NOT FAIL THE ONE EXAM I WAS ALMOST CERTAIN I WOULD FAIL. WHAT IS THIS? I AM CLOSE TO BELIEVING MIRACLES DO ACTUALLY HAPPEN.

However, of course, with the good comes the bad. I AM FUCKING SICK AS A DOG, FOLKS. I was working in Ashfield Mall yesterday and I met a fairly nice old man whom I had a lengthy and profound conversation with. We talked about history, religion, shearing sheep etc. but of course, most importantly, I talked him into buying some skincare products. Hehe. BUT, things suddenly took a turn for the worst after he left. My hands became super sweaty and clammy, I could feel a headache simmering forth BUT FUCKING WORST OF ALL, MY VOICE WAS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOONE. Anyways, subsequent to this madness I was unable to make any further sales and consequently, Mr. Manager was not too impressed. I do believe I am next to be fired. *Chuckles.

19. We are on a safari. We're wrecked, we're chronicling the sights.

G'day folks :)

Yeah yeah yeah... My last post wasn't very insightful hey? I've been super lazy on the interwebs for some reason. FB, Twitter & Blogger have each become too arduous a task for me. I don't even stalk hotties out on FB anymore -- boo :\.

Anyhow, much has changed in the past couple of weeks. For one thing, my general outlook on life took a massive turn for the worse during exams and remained like so briefly afterwards as well. It was actually so bloody tragic -unable to be eloquently expressed in words-. But f*ck dat. I'm all good now. I'm pretty much on a natural high now that uni break has reared it's blaaaaaaahdy b0otifUL head into my lyF. WoOooooo!! PaRtaAY tyM~~~ LOL. Just kiddddddddding...but not really. I am indeed more than content with how everything is right now.
This is probably partly attributed to the fact that I FI-NA-LY MANAGED TO FIND MYSELF A JOB. Let me stress the word "I" and if I hadn't been feeling so lazy, I probably would've backspaced and replaced "FIND" with "EARN". I feel so independent. *Giggles. But in all seriousness, I actually put myself out there during the interview without a care in the world, and it seems things paid off well. It may not be the best job or most suitable, but the people I've met are damn bloody friggin lovely. My manager is pretty cool, probably helllllllla ric$$$$h for a bloke in his earlyEARLY 30s. On that note, survived my first shift with Steph today. Not too sure when I will be able to get used to these 5-5:30am wake up calls but I will continue brave the cold and general reduction in sleep. Sigh. Let me finish this brief paragraph on my working life by sharing with you some observations I've gathered from today's 9-5: [P.S. Manager sent me out to bloody Mt Druitt today...Um...I friggin catch the train at 6:30am from Mounty to Parra, only to be sent back to Mt Druitt an hour later to start at 9. Cool.]
- There are a lot more rude/strange people in the world than what I remember.
- Bitchez be scantily clad at 8am in the middle of winter. Teach me how.
- 90% of people go to ShopSmart Mt Druitt because they either 1. Have a doctor's appointment; 2. Wish to purchase goods from Spotlight; or 3. ARE FUCKING HUNGRY FOR SOME DONUT KING. As a side note, not many people do actually go to ShopSmart (those who did were mostly in the 60+ age group).


x

18.

FUCK MY INABILITY TO DO MATHS.

17. Hold still, you're exactly where I need you to be.

I have just brewed myself a pot of tea in preparation for a long and tedious night of what I hope will be some productive studying. Again, I have denied myself access to FB and Twitter, and my phone is now a defunct piece of shit...and yet I still manage to find ways to procrastinate. Blergh...

16. Oh you know I met you by surprise.

How good have I been at blogging this month? I applaud my own efforts (even if I'm only doing this as a means of procrastination - again overcome by a severe case of CBF-anything-to-do-with-uni Syndrome).

Hm... I mentioned previously that I have noticed some physiological changes to myself. Here's another one. For the past two weeks, at about 10-10:30pm each day, my eyes would become super bloodshot. Of course, I thought this was due to lack of sleep and general tiredness from daily activities (lol) BUT I DON'T REALLY THINK SO ANYMORE. I get a minimum of 8 hours of sleep each day and by the end of the day, I don't actually feel that tired at all. However, when I look into the mirror, I deadset look like I've been on 5 hours of sleep for the entire month. SIGH I AM TRULY A FREAK.

On an unrelated note, uni has become quite monotonous now. There are only two weeks of classes remaining...AND PRAISE THE LORD FOR THAT! Am I keen for my 5 week break!? HELLS YEAH I AM. I will soon compile a list of things I want to do and achieve during my break and it will consist of all things awesome and amazeballs and my life will be as riveting and exciting as ever and you'll all be so jelly. In the mean time however, I guess I should probably get my study mojo on.

EDIT/ Today I had my last BIOL1903 lab! I'm sorta sad. I liked my group and our demo guy was pretty hectic. We just talked about random shit each lesson and the demo guy (James) also had really nice eyelashes! Yeye...I will miss how much of a bludge that class has been. BUT at the same time I'm feelin pretty suhweeeet. I just want everything to be over and done with.

Catch ya all on the flipside homies! x
P.S. THE MARCH PLAYLIST OH MY GAWSH ...http://www.birp.fm/playlists/2012/5924-birp-indie-playlist-march-2012 AND ESP. THIS, THIS SONG MAKES ME SO HAPPY.
 

15. Bruises

I tried to do handstands for you but every time I fell for you.
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you.


I recently rediscovered this song! It's so catchy and sounds so happy but is lyrically so sad. I actually really like it...so much so that I even added it to my "studying" playlist. And yes, that was indeed quite momentous cos I don't typically listen to music while I study. I think it makes it super difficult to concentrate unless the song is super chill and awesome like this one!

14. Dear friend, as you know, your flowers are withering.

Holy fuck it happened again.
01/01 16/05

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EDIT//

Wow... everything that has happened in the past week or two is definitely worthy of conjuring the self-inquiry, "what the fuck is wrong with me?". This is probably the most despondent I have felt in years ... Shit mate.

x

♥☻Here is a relatively happy photo to lighten up the mood.

13. You gotta step up your game to make it to the top. So go!

Hey homies :)
Here are some things I have noted in the past few weeks..

• Recently I have been unfortunate enough to have met with some fairly rude individuals (at uni). There is this particular individual who makes me feel especially uncomfortable and I cannot, for the life of me, understand what the hell I did to be on the receiving end of such hostility. I had never in my life experienced anyone speak to me in such a passive-aggressive tone. So hopefully you can understand how surprised I actually was at the time. I was so taken aback that I can recall what this individual had said to me verbatim and holy shit I am just so fucking baffled. 
• On that note, I have also met quite a few lovely people. Let me tell ya, making friends in uni is a bloody arduous and hella difficult task. I am indeed very thankful for the good friends I have made and my uni-experience has definitely been a lot more enjoyable because of them.  
• I have noticed some physiological changes to my self...i.e. my hands/palms have become increasingly clammy and gross. Initially I thought it was because I always had my phone in one hand and all that heat from my phone were making my palms sweaty but then I realised that my hands were still gross and clammy even when I had not been using my phone. SIGH, I am a freak.
• Old habits die hard. I thought I could reinvent myself to become a hardworking and diligent student....too bad I have proven myself wrong. Still procrastinating and putting in a half-arsed effort as I did in high school. Not attending lectures/tutes are now standard lol. Farrout...I am adamant I will change my ways soon enough.
• My baby sister is cute as fuck. I wish I could show you guys but instant-upload on my phone is not working and I ceebs plugging my phone in. Maybe I will edit this post later and show you all then. She spends most of her day sleeping but when she is not sleeping she is either crying or sucking on something. Haha. She is two weeks old now. Hmm.. I don't think she looks too different from Day 1 but I'm pretty certain her eyelashes have grown.. Ah fuck, I will spoil her in the future. 
• MasterChef is back on TV and I am so freaking overjoyed at this fact! Holy shizzle. I FUCKING MISS THE ASIAN GUY. THE FUCKING JUDGES ARE FUCKING RACIST OH MY EFFING GOODNESS. (Ha jks.)
• Happy Mothers' Day to all you MUMMAZ out der. 
• Holy shit, longest post I have written in a while (and it wasn't actually even that long).

x

12. Oh oh oh, come fill my glass up a little more!

Procrastination is okay when you know when to stop. Too bad I don't hey...
I've got a psychology essay (25% weighting) due in about 3 hours and I've still got 400 words to go...but apparently I'm not too fazed because here I am...blogging....about nothing anyone actually cares about but still.. okay good bye world! x

11. You Were Young

Awh.

Born 8:13am Saturday 28th April 2012.
Progress pics for the lil' cutie. Please keep her in your prayers guys! Every breath is a struggle but yeah, let's all be hopeful for a quick and speeedy recovery. Woo x

Day 1 28/04

Day 2 29/04

Day 3 30/04

10. I just want it to be perfect.

It is Friday night. Decided I'd refuse myself access to FB for a few weeks, making me feel quite bored as fuck y'allllllll. This torrential rain makes me want to sleep. Uni makes me want to die. Nah, I am merely kidding fools. Bet you all got excited anticipating my death. 


What is one to do on a wet and lonely night like this? Hmm.. Here are my options:
1. Study
2. Not study
I have opted for the latter. 


Anyways, ceebs exhausting the little energy I have left thinking about what to write. Hope the weather clears up. Hope this giant mound of uni work decides to do itself. Hope everyone's been good and stays happy! X


P.S. I have no idea why but my face really hurts. It feels like somebody just punched me in the eye socket. Ugh. 

Laters homies!

P.P.S. Been listening to some golden oldies this past week..rekindling my love affair with M&tD. Anywho, her new stuff is pretty gold too. Do enjoy. x

09. We’ve got obsessions I want to erase every nasty thought that bugs me every day of every week.

It's been a while hasn't it? In the last three months quite a lot has changed. I have let everything that was keeping me stagnant (in a manner of words lol) go. That's probably the most important thing 'cause now I'm almost always super happy and grateful for everything. ☺

Since today is Easter Sunday, I thought somehow, with the grace of God, I would be able to resurrect my blawwwwg. But yeah, clearly the blogging mojo is long dead.

Happy Easter xx

P.S. THIS IS GIRL IS ONE OF MY BFFLS. I can't believe my last memory of her was her running off into the distance (quite literally). I will f*cking miss her so much. I loves ya babygurrrl!!!!!! ♥♥♥

08. Every clap of thunder only makes me stronger...

Finally 2012.  

*Please excuse the voice/face/etc.


My new years gift to y'all,
[From Lana's Tumblr]


1: What was the first thing you did in 2012? Greeted everyone! See above.
2: Do you think we will really all die this year? LOL no, don't be ridiculous now..
3: What was the best thing that happened to you in 2011? Many life changing revelations had been made :)
4: What was the worst? Ah, my academic failures. 
5: How many people did you kiss in 2011? [insert single digit number here]
6: What do you want to happen this year? I want to live life happily all year round.
7: What are your 2012 goals? Get my P's!! But before that, of course learn how to drive.
8: Tell us something that we might find surprising about your 2011? It was quite a bore.
9: What do you want to happen this year that didn’t happen last year? Get myself a job.
10: Have you made any new friends yet this year? Yeah :) Hehe.
11: Is there any body modifications planned for this year? (i.e. piercings, tattoos, hair dye, etc) Hahahahahahhahaha yeah there will be.
12: What was the first thing you bought in 2012? LOL Maccas cos I'm a fatass.
13: What did you hate about 2011? Many things, e.g. HSC.
14: What was the most interesting thing to happen this year so far? Nothing...
15: Tell us a secret about 2011? I really did not enjoy 2011
16: What is your name, age and location? Trang, 18, Plumpton (lol)
17: What is your hair colour? Brown
18: What is your eye colour? Brown
19: What is your heritage? Viet
20: Are you single this year? Yes :)